Thursday, December 4, 2008
So I've decided I want to go on a spiritual quest. I've been wanting to do this for some time now, and was going to do it together with Morgan, but life got in the way. Sort of ironic considering how that's what we're escaping from, but I'm determined to not let school and crap get in my way this time. I wish I had some cool heritage I could go back to. I wish I weren't white. I feel dirty. I wish I had Native American blood, or Peruvian, or Ecuadorian or something. I just feel like a plain old whitey and I hate it. :(
Anyways, part of this journey that I speak of will include some serious meditation, which I should be doing anyways just due to stress levels. But I find the motion and noises in the house to be too distracting and then I turn up my music louder to drown others out. I just want to take a trip off to some forest and be with the pure sounds of nature. This is kind of funny considering we've been studying transcendentalists in English like Emerson. I always find inspiration in Native American culture and ever since I first learned about it in 3rd grade, I've wished I could go back in history and spend time with these people. I realize some of them were warring tribes, but some were peaceful as well. They didn't view the land as something they could own, but rather, they shared what they had with others. Stupid Europeans for being land-hungry and pushing them off of their territory ...and I digress...
Anyways, wish me luck on my journey. Maybe I'll come to some great realization. :P